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I don't wanna become that academic researcher

Because it's so boring, man. Doing science is boring. The results are rarely  yummy. But I do want to run a lab. Once again, wanting to fly before rung or even walk. Bullshit. I'm dead. Every day I'm dead but I'm still here somehow. It all hurts, it all hurts write music, I don't care man man man man man man man man  is human woman is human but longer ma, c'mon woman

If there's nothing to worry about you are boring and stupid but...

...if you worry about things all the time, even ones worth your concern that's a bad bad life. I am not good at taking care of my duties. Worse, I am not good at knowing or deciding which my duties are in the first place. There's all the paperwork I suck at. I'm missing deadlines, forgetting or ignoring taxes, payments, all the stuff that need be settled. This keeps haunting me. I may hire an assistant-accountant at some point but by that time I hope there's enough paperwork so it's not embarrassing. That's one of my guilty motivations to pursuing a fancy-ass life. I need help. It's stupid, somehow. First walk then fly. I'm bad at walking, not horrible but not good. Okay, I'm not good at walking but still want to fly. Seems doable but also foolish.  Ya, so I worry about things I'm hiding away from. And it's a few, and thank God either I get them settled or there's some I have completely forgotten to give me a bad surprise in the future bu...